My insecurities, a garden of weeds
Infesting my thoughts at lightning speeds
Clouding out my abilities, my talents undeemed
Covering me in a rug, a veil of sadness ever beamed
No matter how I soar through the night, a bird with wings spread wide
My insecurities will be a judge, the harm and losses it can provide
No matter the strength I mustered within, the flaws will haunt and harass again
An essence of darkness, I will have to bear, just willing to be free of this strain
No one knows how I truly feel, even still they cannot tell
For how I appear, I put on a brave face, my weaknesses I will never acknowledge
But right now, though I am in control, I am too scared to let it go
These deep rooted worries will consume, until I make a change and grab the reins once morĀ
My insecurities, how they linger in my mind,
Clawing and scratching, I cannot be kind,
For constantly worries of my worth,
Drown out all the things of joy and mirth.
Negativity so inescapable and real,
Self-worth slowly fading, I cannot conceal,
Thoughts of pessimism cutting deep in my heart,
A spark of joy hasn't show up in a while, ready to depart.
There's a wall up blocking positivity I should seek,
Feeding into the fears my insecurities speak,
My mind fogged by the cloud of doubt,
Trying to break the chains, I cannot get out.
My insecurities, underlying theme of my life,
I know I have strength to reach up to the sky so rife,
Getting rid of doubts, I can slowly bear,
My true value and love, finally I can share.