My insecurities, a garden of weeds Infesting my thoughts at lightning speeds Clouding out my abilities, my talents undeemed Covering me in a rug, a veil of sadness ever beamed No matter how I soar through the night, a bird with wings spread wide My insecurities will be a judge, the harm and losses it can provide No matter the strength I mustered within, the flaws will haunt and harass again An essence of darkness, I will have to bear, just willing to be free of this strain No one knows how I truly feel, even still they cannot tell For how I appear, I put on a brave face, my weaknesses I will never acknowledge But right now, though I am in control, I am too scared to let it go These deep rooted worries will consume, until I make a change and grab the reins once mor  My insecurities, how they linger in my mind, Clawing and scratching, I cannot be kind, For constantly worries of my worth, Drown out all the things of joy and mirth. Negativity so inescapable and real, Self-worth slowly fading, I cannot conceal, Thoughts of pessimism cutting deep in my heart, A spark of joy hasn't show up in a while, ready to depart. There's a wall up blocking positivity I should seek, Feeding into the fears my insecurities speak, My mind fogged by the cloud of doubt, Trying to break the chains, I cannot get out. My insecurities, underlying theme of my life, I know I have strength to reach up to the sky so rife, Getting rid of doubts, I can slowly bear, My true value and love, finally I can share.

I think of you when I'm alone I feel the aching in my bones Your absence like a crushing stone It's hard to carry on alone I miss you more than I can say Your kind heart, your loving way The way you made my troubles go away The way you'd always be there to stay I miss the laughter and the tears The moments that we held so dear The things that we shared through the years That no one else will ever hear My heart is heavy, my eyes are wet I really miss you, I can't forget But I know you're happy and at rest And I'm so thankful for all the time we did our best.